To me there’s a difference in self harming and actually wanting to dir. I’m no coward. Like I’ve said. I won’t end my life bc I don’t want my remainging family to live with the fact that they didn’t listen. Knowing what I’m capable of. And knowing I’m not afraid. They still go about.
I want to die so bad. And I think in all honesty this would be fair to me. But as you see I can for these fuckers around me who don’t care about me. Selfless. Fuck… I cut deep and watch the blood run out. I feel alone..and dead already its so screwy that I hurt and harm myself like that to no I’m still alive right.
But secretly I kill myself everyday. I’m not scare do to go in pain or not. My plan.. The death I will suffer ..liver failure. I take multiple headache pills through out the days bottles… And night sleep aid. I figure sence I have liver damage as I is. Its worth it. They can watch slowly… Fucked isn’t it.
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Uhh.. no.. take care of your self.. Live Long and Prosper~!
Even though others doesn’t care about you doesn’t me you don’t have to take care of your self too <3 Please be healthy and fit. The more you healthy the more opportunities you can take, and believe me everything's gonna be alright. *hug*