Last Post

Hi guys, how are you? Me? Oh I’m splendid all things considered, thanks for asking.

Enough nonsense.

So this is my last post on here. Or at least the last post I’ll write to you lot on here. I may put something on tomorrow morning.

Wow, what a ride it’s been! I must say, I’ve far preferred the ups to the downs, but you play the hand you’re dealt. I must say I am one for emotional, drawn out and dramatic goodbyes, but I’ll make this mercifully quick.

All of my friends are out at a rugby match tonight, and I should be with them. I was with them last year. It just isn’t fair. My life is passing me by and there’s not a damned thing I can do about it. It’s like there are two parallel train tracks, I’m on one of them and my life is on the other aboard a freight train.

But griping has served me no purpose in the past, in fact saying that I’m miserable only tends to make me more miserable.

I’m not 100% sure I want to go, but I want all of this to stop. I would ask anyone not to waste a comment telling me not to do anything, or to speak to someone. If you go through my history on this website you’ll find I always do stupid things and I have spoken to so many people.

And that brings me onto my final point. Thank you. To each and every one of you that I’ve interacted with on here, thank you from the bottom of my heart. I don’t really believe you can become friends with someone solely through interactions on the internet, but at the very least you’ve been my rock. Through every little bit of this shit. I have read posts from people in so much pain, pain so much more intense than my own, people who have every right to take their own lives, but still they come on here and offer support and advice to others struggling. You are amazing, you truly are.

I don’t know what else to put. Normally I’m overflowing with words but I’ve dried up a bit.

Adios, mi amigos.

Peace.