running away

im 17 i live in the state of iowa and my parents dont want me to be with my boyfriend so right now they dont know im dating him they think im going and hanging out with his sister which i am but im also spending time with him and they dont know im with him and any ways i kinda want to run away but im scared because i dont want to get found and i want to take my pets with me but i know i cant and im so confused i really want to cry why i want out of the house is because my dad has become an acoholic and my mom sits downstairs and crys and complains about how shes alone and my brother i love him but all he does is complain about how much work sucks and play his stupid xbox games i have always lived in the same house same state same town gone to the same school and i really want a new place to be at i have depression and i know if i run away i cant get my meds and i know where id go but im pretty sure id get found