I was manic when we started dating. That’s what the drs say. I had lost weight, was happy, wanted to stay up so late and have sex all the time. I moved In with him. He fell In love with me. Then I crashed. So low I thought of suicide constantly. I’ve never been manic or this low before. I feel as if I’ve created him. I’m not who I was. Gained weight. Ugly. Stupid. I feel so sorry for him. I should move out so he can find a good person for him. I’ve told him that and he says he wants me, no one else. I just feel so guilty. So bad for him. I’m sure I embarrass him when we are out together. He deserves so much more. What should I do?
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Think yourself lucky you have someone who loves you, even though you don’t love yourself. My advice is think of the good times no matter how small or infrequent they seem. Hold on to them cause when they end there’s nothing left.
Lose weight.
Oh gee Morris i wish I’d fucking thought of that. Maybe that’s all my problem. I need to lose weight and I’ll be happy and not want to blow my fucking brains out. Morris you’re a dick. I’m sure I’m not the only person to every tell you that.
Ask an honest question and you’ll get an honest response.
I’m sure you’re not ugly, and not stupid.
Weight is not such a big deal.
He says he still wants you regardless, and you’re with him because you love him right?
Just tell him what you feel and let him help you through this, and hopefully you’ll get back to what it used to be between you two before.
Don’t feel guilty, everyone has problems. If you two are really commited to each other he can help you through it.
Thank you Qfox and duzo. He knows how I feel. i just can’t keep the guilty feeling away. I do love him. I love him dearly. That’s why I feel he deserves better.
If you love him dearly i don’t see how anything else will be better for him than that.
Except, can you really trust someone else to treat him well? They might use, abuse him and leave him.
And well, he loves and wants only you.
Just because you’re feeling bad at the moment doesn’t make you bad for him.
If he insted went through something rough and felt down and depressed you wouldn’t leave him, would you?
A relationship also means staying there for each other when things get bad.
You really have no reason to feel guilty.
Moggie,
Do what you want, it’s your life to, BUT if you choose to stay with him, then change and think about him and do your best. no wishey washy crap 🙂
Duzo you give wonderful advice. Thanks for talking to me.
You are all he wants. He CHOOSES you and he is WILLLING to stay with you and be there for you. Cherish him. When he loves you, you are the best he can get so don’t feel guilty. you aren’t a burden, you are a gift for him
Let him love you. That’s all you can do. Just let him love you in his own way. I was him so I speak from personal experience. Just let him love you.