I’ve been manic for the past 2+ weeks but on a major come down and feel absolutely crap I saw my cpn yesterday when I was bad with my voices and his coming again on Friday.
I’m so fed up with how I am I just car’t deal with it I don’t mind being minic as I’m happy but that the only time I am
I’ve got a loving family and bf who cares I just don’t want to hurt them but if things don’t change I know i will I’ve suffered from mental illness since I was 15 I’m now 25 I just don’t want it anymore
I’m a prisoner in my own home I just wish things would get better but they never do and if things do improve its only for a short time
I’m lonely
I’m tired
I’m suicidal
I don’t thing I can go on but I after to for my loved ones but I’m scared that it will get the better off me.
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Mental illness sucks balls. I hear voices and have been in psychosis quite a few times the voices for me don’t relent. One moment its like don’t commit suicide and the next 10 moments its like commit suicide and heaps of other shit too.
This the same I hear 2 different voices one tells me not too tell jokes and is very Pleasant but the other is the total Upstairs it’s very violent and destructive