Hi, everyone.
The past couple months for me have been the same as before: sad. Then I realized something today, I can actually change my life, like maybe I’ve actually just missed this big solution to all my problems and now, I can finally be happy, or something.
Generally, people think I’m ‘chill’, and I guess I am, on the outside that is. On the inside, I have great turmoil. You see, I’m a very pessimistic person. Small offhand comments can stay with me for weeks, months, or even years. I’m always told to start ‘thinking positive’, and I’ve tried but it never works, or maybe it’s just because I’m the type of person that easily gives up.
I am just very confused. I feel like I’m supposed to be normal, I mean, everyone else is. So why can’t I? Why do I have to get hurt over everything? Is it just ‘teenage angst’, am I just an ungrateful brat, what the hell is wrong with me and why does it make me want to kill myself?
I just want to be normal and happy.
(I am also upset over something a stranger over the internet about me; I’ve reached an all time low, guys.)
P.S. Is psychology useless? It’s pretty off topic but I’ve always wanted to be in that field and all I’ve heard about it is that it’s worthless.
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Psychology is far from worthless. I wish I had gotten into it more when I was in college. Both my siblings are in the field.
What is normal? Who decides? I understand that you are not happy. What do you think the real cause is? Is it just your pessimistic nature? Or is there something else?
Btw, have you considered getting a therapist? That may help you get some answers on why you are so sad all the time.
I think it’s mostly pessimistic nature that causes problems for pretty much everythung else. I do want to go to a therapist but mental illnesses are very taboo here and my relatives already joke of me being some sort of mute nerd and the thought of them finding out there’s something wrong with me is way too scary.
@heyimlost i don’t like that you identify with people around you and that you use overused phrasing and @worthless_loser73 i don’t like that you’re giving out suggestions like you know something.
I have never claimed to know anything. All I try to do is ask questions and hope the person reading will try to find their own answers. What are you doing?