So today I was inviting people to something on facebook, and I just saw her face among my friends.
That sweet girl who used to be my friend on highschool and killed herself some years ago.
It’s kind of weird having her on facebook. It makes me feel… I don’t know how. Specially seeing her childish face when everyone else has become an adult.
It’s like if a piece of world had stopped moving. And there she is, being 19 years old forever.
I remember that I saw her a month before her dead. Even if our friendship didn’t have a good end and we hadn’t spoke since I finished high school (a year before her), she was so nice and sweet, and seemed really happy to see me… she asked me to meet some day, and I just said “sure, I’ll call you”, and then never did.
Maybe she needed a friend?
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Try not to guilt yourself. You weren’t to know. We all say I’ll call you and then it doesn’t happen for whatever reason. That’s life. I’m sorry for your loss.
I just realized that she and my stepfather commited suicide the same day -in different years-. It’s creepy.