I truly do want to die. I feel bad for thinking it but I wonder since I reconnected with my mom if she would want to die too. She has more resources and could probably get ahold of a gun. I’m almost certain her religious beliefs keep her from any thoughts of suicide and she would never touch a gun either. I only thought of how she has nothing left the same as I have no reason to live. I can’t take the agony of being alone and never knowing what it’s like to hold someone I love. The man I love is still complaining about how alone he is, how no one cares, how desperately he wants someone to be there for him, etc etc all while ignoring me like I don’t exist.
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Its crazy that my girlfriend treats me the same way.
He’s not even my boyfriend. I’ll never count as that someone who has his back.