It’s hard to wake up every day and pretend that everything is okay when it clearly isn’t. It’s hard to say you’re fine when you aren’t. It’s hard to always be the strong one. The one that everyone comes to.
A lot of people rely on me and all I can do is try my best to help them.
Of course, I wanna be that person that will always be there for you because I know what it’s like to have no one to turn to. To feel alone in this shitty ass world.
Honestly, I tell everyone that suicide is not the answer but when it comes to my own problems suicide is an option.
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If we were to be honest with everyone of how we felt, we’d be bombarded with questions, out of their own fears and anxieties. I don’t need that kind of reaction… It’s as bad as it is already.
It’s hard to find someone who will actually sit down and speak with you, show some compassion in the fact that you’re hurting, and not become all frantic, trying to stop you and so on. That’s why this website is so comforting… in that people who post on here have experienced it before or are going through it now. It’s like a spiritual connection.
I guess it is easier to offer people advice but not follow it through ourselves…
If you do need to talk though, I’m all ears… I probably won’t be of much help, but the most I could do is listen and talk about it, and there would be no need for you to cover up how you truly feel.
Thank you and you are absolutely right. People don’t get it. They think we’re mental or something.
It’s hard to pretend, for me it’s easier than letting them in. I just keep taking on more. Everyday more problems to solve, emotions to heal that are not my own. Today was one of the hardest days I have had in a long time on that front. All I see around me are people that require me. Everyone is so used to me pulling through. I find the way I feel completely unrelatable to those I am surrounded by.
Keep your stick on the ice, I’ll try to do the same.