I am so sick of people thinking I know of what i want to do but that isn’t the only thing. I wish he would get that through his god damn thick skull. I lost all interest and passion in broadcasting. It was fun and interesting 7 years ago but this semester ruined it for me in a radio class I took. All I wanna do is be an artist be able to express myself through my art work and make a living out of it. But the chances of that are slim… The argument got so nasty last night by the end of the night I ended up with some new scars on my arms and thighs. that should be able to numb the pain for a while or so till i need to do it again. This is also why I prefer being at college living on my own over staying at my parents house. I ‘ve probably cutted myself more times in the 12 days that I’ve been home for the summer than I have in the last semester of classes combined. Now that’s its summer out its gonna be more difficult to keep them hidden especially when I go on my date next week. Well luckily its gonna be at night so maybe he wont even notice them…..
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I’m sad to hear about the pain you’re in.
Being away from your parents does give you some space to breath. That’s a GOOD thing!
AS far as being an artist, yes anything arts-related is tough to make a living at. I’ve been a musician for many years and it’s always been tough but I was also doing what I loved to do. Things have gotten bad since the economy went to shit though. If you’re looking for financial security then it’s definitely not the best choice. But with that said, you could be an art teacher. You could study graphic arts. How about architecture? It’s different but related. Research careers in art and maybe even talk to some artists about the realities of that career choice. Or, you could study something else in college, get a day gig and do your art on the side. You’ve got some options. Good luck.
I’m sorry your going through so much. Even though we all go through things, there definitely all at different levels. I hope u dont cut anymore, but I know why u do so, I have too been there. I’m here for you, reply back if u ever need someone to talk too… On a positive note it’s good to hear your going on a date, that’s a good thing keep yourself busy and allow ur self to get up and get out there, many great doors can be opened that way. . Best of luck too you.
Its ok. :3 I’ve been struggling with it on and off for the past 5-7 years. thanks so much if u ever wanna chat off the site email me @naruto.chic@yahoo.com.