some people deserve death

Simply put I’m not a well man (mentally)

I’m a psychopath point blank.

I’m no killer or anything but I can’t honestly say I won’t be in the future.

I wish I had an ability to empathize with people on an emotional level but I simply cannot.

I wish I were not a coward who shrinks at life but I am.

I wish I did not have a sexuality that bounces around more than a basketball at an NBA game but I do.

I wish that I could generate my own ego functions like an emotionally healthy individual would but I cannot.

I wish my mind was not warped but it is.

They say suicide is permanent solution to a temporary problem but they are wrong. Once the mind is lost it stays lost. Sure there maybe times where everything feels fine but sooner or later the beast returns to finish it’s meal. Sooner or later it returns to its feast of lost souls.  Sooner or later it consumes what’s left of you. It always returns to finish what it started. It never leaves any food on the table.  And unfortunately for me it’s feeding time and I’m the chosen victim.