I really want to give up.
I have to put up with so much, no one loves me, no one cares for me… So who would grieve when I die or disappear?
But that won’t happen. Why? Because I’m scared to. I’ve seen things that can prove that people will make shit up and jump to conclusions. For instance: I disappear, run away without any evidence to where I was going… Then people at my school would say things like this: “She got pregnant and had to find her baby daddy.” or “She decided to drop out and be a slut for her living to make enough money for her baby she has to abort sooner or later.” SHIT I DON’T KNOW!!
I just want to… Vanish.
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“SHIT I DON’T KNOW!!” ..? Did anyone actually say those things? Regardless of whether they did say these two, are you creating in your own head what else you want them to say about you? Do you see that you are upset because you waste your time justifying yourself to others? Do you realize that justifying yourself is grounds for more ridicule? Do you realize the importance of self-worth? Do you know the difference between an egotist and an egoist? Will you find out that one is dependent on instant gratification and the other will demand that you become competent? Do you realize the importance of the struggle? Will you remain complacent?
Ouu you sound like a follower of objectivism. Fun! 🙂
I care about you, I would grieve if you died so please don’t die anytime soon. Find a creative outlet, that helps a lot with me. Good luck
When you are young, it’s harder to ignore what people say about you. As you get older it will become easier. Right now, in my condition, I could care less about what anyone would say about me. But I understand that it is different for everybody, and to you it might be very important.
Why do you think no one loves you or cares about you?
Keep in mind everyone you know in school, you won’t ever see again once you are out. (unless you keep contact).
It depends on the size of your town/city of course. But you can always move away.
I’ve enjoyed you here, I care.
You know what? If they talk, let them. If you’re a topic of people’s conversations, that means you’re a memorable person, and that gives you power. Enjoy the attention and use it to your advantage.
And if you really disappear, then what they think doesn’t matter – because you did it for YOU, not them. This is YOUR decision. The only opinions that should matter to you are those of your closest friends and perhaps family. Everyone else? Screw ’em.
I know exactly how you feel. I’m in high school and I really know the struggle. They always make up some stupid shit about you just to entertain everyone. They don’t give a shit about you. At least I only have 2 years left. They’re all fake asf. There is always someone that loves you and would cry at your grave. Someone unexpected. These type of people exist although you may never notice them. They are always around but you never actually notice. I would care. I know what it’s like to wonder who gives 2 shits about you and who doesn’t. Stay strong. They say life gets better. You wouldn’t want to miss it, now would you?
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and thankyou all for your comments.