This morning, early of course, I don’t get much sleep anymore, at least I thought, left me in the dust. I told her about my depression and how sometimes I feel suicidal..I thought it would help opening up to someone. But it completely blew up in my face. I’m not sad about it, it’s expected isn’t it. She said that I was crazy and needed help..perhaps I do. I wasn’t asking for her pity, I don’t need pity, just her understanding and support you know. I see it as if she acted like that when I tried to open up to her, she was obviously no friend to me and is better off out of my life. A true friend as I see it would have understood, I would have at least. It doesn’t matter now. I do value my friendships, which is why I’m explaining this here. I’m not a loner, an outcast yes, but not a loner. She was there for me for many things, why would she leave me now? I don’t understand. Do you think I was wrong for telling her? This was a friend of many years, one person I could tell anything too.
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Or she was not in the right mood for such talks, or else she wasn’t your friend from her whole heart…maybe she will realize her mistake and apologize, because saying such things CANNOT be explained by anything. Maybe she is crazy! How can you know? Geez, such people piss me off. She didn’t even give a fuck to dig deeper and maybe see how miserable you are and thatyou needed some support. I had countless situations like that… suicide and depression have horrible stigma…
Well she is completely ignoring me now, it’s fine. Guess I just move on and forget.
Sometimes it is the best way. A real friend will stay with you even in your misery.
Never trust a woman.
I’m really sorry to hear that your friend has behaved that way to you. I’m not sure why she’s distanced herself so fast but not everyone can handle the subject. Some people panic, or overreact, or in this case, run off and hide. If I’m feeling really low I call the samaritans. Not because I think my friends dont care, they really do. When I call the samaritans I know they will be fully availabe to listen, and wont panic or overreact, even if its 3am! I know when I dial the number that a good person who has volunteered their time specifically to talk to people who are in very low states will answer the phone. And that they also have support around them so I can feel free to talk. And they’ve helped me alot. I can really recommend calling them if you ever feel you want to.
Hey Nil,
No, I don’t think you were wrong for telling her. Take it as a simple sign of misunderstanding. Give her a few days or months. Strangely, I have found those that seem to understand the least, often end up understanding the best, given time. Don’t fault her for her own misreckoning. Instead, be jealous that she doesn’t understand.
(BTW, I’ve quite enjoyed your posts)