I haven’t been coming to this site for long, but I see a lot of people posting that they’re about to kill themselves. And then they never post anything ever again. What am I supposed to think? Did they go through with it? Or was it all just a bunch of bullshit? I’m not naïve and I realize this is the internet, but it helps me in my own struggles when I know that others are still out there fighting their demons. Does this bother anyone else or is it just me? We really are all fighting this shit together, just different circumstances.
p.s. worthless_loser73 if you’re still out there, let me know. That was his screen name choice – NOT mine.
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In the time I’ve been here I’ve seen a few confirmed losses (news stories matching the poster’s description, or friends/relatives coming here to inform us). It’s always a kick in the gut. The worst is when the poster seems like they’re getting better, but suddenly news comes that they did the deed. I agree, it helps to think everyone’s out there fighting alongside us. But lately when people stop posting I assume the worst.
I agree with you that when people stop posting, at least some of them went through with it. And that thought really depresses the hell out of me, as if I’m not already depressed to begin with in the first place. Thanks for commenting Salt.
Hey salt, I have been only 2 month old user. So can you tell me the usernames or screen-names of the few sp users whose losses are confirmed if you remembers any? I wants to check out their stories and comments.
Hi MS… I have a lousy memory for usernames so I’ve forgotten most. Just a few weeks ago a young member killed herself and her mother posted the news. I feel like a heel because I can’t remember her name, although I remember her posts. Anyway here are a few: Kira, Quad-Dingle, David455, Mike77 and the one who made national headlines because he was the son of a famous televangelist: LetMeSleep. Just a few weeks ago I was talking to a guy who was set on jumping, like really set and there wasn’t anything you could say to talk him out of it, although he was really nice and talked about other things. He abruptly stopped posting right after saying he was going to do it. His username was lonelytear. For some reason I think about him every day and have been checking the news to see if maybe he survived so I could get in touch with him. Unfortunately no hotel jumper survivors in the past month in the news, just lots of “success stories”. It’s really sad & frustrating on a selfish level, but like gwerg said, you have to think their suffering is over.
Just remembered another recent loss: misssK88
Its good to see that their suffering is over now. I wish there was no suffering but suffering will always persists among many of us and then suicide is only to get rid of the suffering. Thanks for that information. I searched in google for son of televangelist suicide and got to know his real identity and read news articles about @letmesleep. It was both sad and happy.
It gives me hope to think we aren’t all slaves to the torture of life, the tyranny of self-preservation. Those brave souls are free.
Yeah LetMeSleep had a really rough time, he tried so hard to end it several times and I remember him talking about how much money he spent trying to get the drugs to do it right, but he just got cheated out of thousands. When people want something that bad, sometimes you just gotta hope they succeed, which he eventually did. Like you said, those brave souls are free.
Did you find the news stories about Quad-Dingle? Now that guy knew what he wanted and he did it, exactly as he said he would (lit himself on fire on his ex-wife’s front yard). When I hear about things like that I can say 2 things: 1) They were sure of themselves, so godspeed. And 2) I’m nowhere near that level, so I should just quit whining.
So in a weird way, sometimes knowing about stuff like that gives me the strength to keep living. It’s like I see how determined other people are to end it, and then I realize I’m not there yet. So I might as well keep on living? Something like that, I guess.
*Puts a song “Now we are free” * 😀
I searched for quad-dingle news articles a lot but i have not found any matching news article with his stories.
dailymail dot co dot uk/news/article-2155722/Husband-commits-suicide-setting-FIRE-WIFE-getting-bad-news-family-finances.html
I only got this news article which is only a little similar(and has differences too) to quad-dingle story.This news article was posted on june 7 2012. It seems he was not famous like @letmesleep so it is very difficult to track the right and precise news article about his suicide.
Now if I will decide and plan to commit suicide in the upcoming time, I will leave a scheduled post.
Fighting the battle with you <3
I would say its 50/50 we will never know at the end. Although I am in a conflict on my emotions on the matter. It sucks that they are no longer with us, but they are in peace now free from suffering, free from their pain of life.. just at a earlier time
You’re right gwerg, we will never know. As sad as it all is, it DOES offer me some peace to know they’re not suffering anymore.
Thanks nobodysperfect. It means a lot to have someone fighting alongside me.