hiohneh is an user of this board and I can’t talk to her, I am unable to send an e-mail because it seems to have got deleted by her and the blogspot she used to write is down!
I was really trying to help this person but it seems that it wasn’t enough and I am really worried about her and I don’t have another way to contact her I don’t know what to do!?!
I fear that she gave up and I will really miss this person.
I thought that she just wanted more time to chill off, but it seems that it was my fault because I didn’t support her enough, I should have pull more conversations, I think it’s partially my fault
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Hey pal, I’m not entirely clear on your situation, but I was in a friendship, completely committed and the person still chose to end it. I couldn’t have done more. In the end, people make their own choices. It sucks but that’s the reality of things.
Hey thanks for your reply and sorry about yout friend, sometimes we cannot do much about it, my ex-gf just disappeared after sometime(it was 2 years go, she lives in another city) and I don’t have any information about her since then and I think it’s parcially my fault too because I broke up with her and never heard of her again, she deleted everything, hope she is ok.
i used to talk to a guy here who was here for a few months… he was very determined to commit suicide no matter what I did or said. his last email he sent said he was going to try another method to kill himself. I have never heard from him since, and that was a few months ago as well. His email doesn’t seem to exist anymore because i tried to send him another one and the email provider said the email cant be delivered/address doesn’t exist so I assume he actually did kill himself, and his youtube is gone too…
i am sorry
I hope isn’t about the guy on the phone, I meant, I am sorry about what I said before to you, it was a careless action, but hey thanks for the reply it’s nice to see you around.
It’s hard, people have different problems and sometimes it cannot be fixed by another person, lets just hope that ur friend had moved on and it’s what I am doing now, as a med student I will try everything to make things work now and the first move of all is to lend my hand to people who need of it.
But well I think he is lucky to have someone like you around, too bad it wasn’t enough for him, like I said, people have different problems and it cannot be fixed by another person, but only by themselves.
Oh and I just copy pasted ur profile pic haha sorry I just found it to be cool.
I’m really sorry! I’m going to try to explain this as best as I can, I hope it doesn’t sound too far-fetched. I have no idea why but every few months I get into a this manic/paranoid thing. I don’t know why it happens, perhaps a build-up of stress/anxiety/medication/bad nutrition. I just get super super paranoid. I was feeling like everyone knows everything about me and what I’m doing at every moment, like I’m being watched; but it’s also comes along with a happy feeling. Like, I’m free from depression and I started to wonder why I was feeling suicidal/writing such depressing things.
That’s when I went on a deleting spree. I deleted all my post on here and got rid of my profile… well not really got rid of because WordPress keeps you here forever, I just changed the name. Anyway, I meant to just take my blog down but what happened was I ended up deleting the e-mail account as well. I’m a serious dummy and I thought I was only deleting certain parts of the account, not the whole thing…. -__- I didn’t want to contact Google about it because, yeah, paranoia. I ended up figuring out a way to get it back via a Google search (irony?), but it took me a few days because I was dealing with so much stuff in my life/ still dealing with old issues as well that I was like, whatever, it happened, I’m internet dead.
So I was still roaming this site because although I was feeling “better” I was still feeling like crap. Sorry, I have no idea if that makes any sense. =/ I always find this place to be comforting because I feel so alone but I also feel I’m no help to anyone by commenting or interacting, so I was like I don’t think it matters if I’m not posting. Then I saw your post and I was like “Jeez, I’m such an awful person.” Why could I not put two and two together? I’m on a suicide site so if you disappear there’s a 50/50 chance you’re dead.
It’s really nice you thought about me! ^^ Nothing is your fault it’s just my life is being ruled by so much stuff/illnesses I just shut myself away. It’s also not helping that my treatment has become very spotty, getting an appointment to see a doctor has become such a hassle. 🙁 If this happens again most likely I’m not dead, just not feeling well. I really wish I wouldn’t do this to myself/other people. I am so sorry. My e-mail should work now, so I’ll do my best to be around. I should have thought more about this, but my mind was going so fast, it’s like I couldn’t think at all. =/ Again, I’m so sorry.
hiohneh, your latest post can’t be commented. Is this happened willingly?
Hi Yikrens, I just saw your comment now. I don’t know if you’ll ever see this reply.
Sometimes I’ll delete posts, and sometimes I’ll close comments on my posts. I’m a very anxious person so I worry about posts being archived (though I’m starting to realize this is inescapable.)
Honestly, when I first started posting on SP I was a different person. It’s amazing how many things have changed.
Anyway, I apologize if you wanted to comment on my post and weren’t able to. I appreciate the interest, that’s very kind of you. 🙂
And to the OP of this post I hope you’re well.