My life

I will tell you some of my personal story for those who care to know. So ever since I started elementary school, I wasn’t normal, I didn’t talk to anyone, I was shy, my family thought I was autistic because of mu extreme shyness. I didn’t make my first friend until the second grade. Most of my early school days are a blur and I don’t really remember, so. I started smoking weed in 6th grade, and that became the love of my life for the next 6 or seven years. When I was at school all I could think about was going home and going to the woods alone and get high. It took away all the pain, all the rejections and bullying I dealt with. School was hell for me, I hated going, and like I said, because I wasn’t exactly normal, I was a prime target for those who think it funny to try and victimize those smarter than them. Yeah I was extremely smart, I could remember every single answer on a test, people came to me for help, of course they had no interest in being any friend of mine, they just wanted to use me. I knew that. I passed the final exam, 100 questions, with 100%, with me being high as hell, and very little sleep. So that’s how middle school went, high school, well that’s when my grades began to suffer, I lost all care of anything. That’s when my depression really got bad and I tried suicide two times, one by drowning, and one by cutting. Niether worked as I am still alive now. I got my first kiss in eleventh grade, from a girl that was way too young. She was 14 and I was 18. It never went any further than that though. I’m still a virgin so. I’m tired of typing, so I’m done. I want this to be a faded memory. My story sucks anyhow.