Hey guys,
Honestly, i am not suicidal right now, but generally i feel empty.
I am 17 and there is very little good about my life right now.
Academically i have detoriated.
I have literally no friends, i like a girl, but she doesn’t like me.
Nothings going for me right now.
So ill be blunt,
DOES IT GET BETTER?
Do things become better. Does not getting into a good college mean the end of life?
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Hi Sui.
At 17 years old I was hollow and wanting to not exist everyday of my life. Please understand I did not want to die, I did not want to exist.
I became goal oriented and wanting to help others, this gave me purpose and love for life for a long time.
A distraction it seems, as recently I am again declining.
All I can say is that life will bring you up and knock you down without a hint or a word.
As Bill Hicks said; Life is just a ride.
Always here if you need to talk or just someone to listen. I know too well what it is you are experiencing, but you can and will pull through.
I am sorry, but how old are you exactly??
I am 21 my friend.
Oh. Ok. So here’s the thing I can’t focus myself. And its ruining me.
As for college, it really is different for everyone.
I had aspirations to go to college/university but as I finished high school/(middle school?) I just became tired of all the expectation and just stopped going.
I’m currently in hospitality, somewhere I never thought I’d be but I excel at my job and I enjoy the people I work with.
So yeah college just depends on where you want to be career wise. I don’t regret fucking about in school one bit.
As for life in general, for some people (myself) the peaks and valleys of your mental health are what you make of it. I just escape a deep pit of isolation and hate and self resent. I did not want to die, I just wanted to be gone. Away. But the more you influence a notion, the more it’s going to fuel the fire. I decided to just shut off the negative thoughts (which some people can do and some can’t)
The more you let something burn, the more debris there will be to replace what was.
I dont wanna die either, i want a fresh start , you know.
Yeah I know what you mean.
Even things like moving to a new place seems drastic and unrealistic. I’ve often thought about leaving my town and living somewhere where I know no one. But it’s always good to have people around that you know.
Sometimes just take the good with the bad.
If it’s people you want to get away from, there’s no shame in ridding yourself of people who cause direct discomfort. As much as they will hate you for it, your happiness is what’s important. Do what you need to do in any regards
No i dont wanna get rid of people. I wanna go someplace were i am at peace and i am happy. Of courses in that is not possible without some peole whom you love.
Its like, right now, and this is gonna sound clichéd as fuck …. Its like i am trying to come first in someone else’s race.
Like i dont even know what the fuck i wanna actually do.
It depends on who you are and what you do with your life.. If you can get help from others, improve yourself then yes, life can be a lot better. But if you are something like me, autistic, born to a poor family, then life won’t get better for you- it will take a motherfucking miracle for things to get better..
Sounds like you really had it tough. I am sorry man. If you wanna talk I am here.
I can only speak for me on this one, I was miserable at 7, 17, 27 and at 31, things are as worse as They ever been. No. For me it didn’t get better. It got a lot worse despite people telling me it will get better all my life.
in a way i wish i could go back to the age u are now, im only 23 but because i decided to continue with study im in a far worse position than i wouldve been if i decided to join the army or if i did a trade. ive finished a degree in psych and ironically knowing what haunts you doesnt help you.
in a twisted way im envious of you because you can choose to do more than what i can do now at least as far as work is concerned …
in terms of love life … let me simply say the tragedy is far less with her not liking you than if she ended up leaving u later in life if that makes sense… and at 17 look im not gonna say no relationships are long lasting at that age but i know very very veryyy few that still do its a bitter reality when people kinda want to taste the freedoms before their age catches up on them
the only thing i can suggest try find things u like.. but a lot of them and dont focus on just one like i play vid games, watch like entire tv series of anime etc keeping distracted can help but id say keep talking to people on forums or whatever social