Don’t waste your time reading this.

Hun… 🙂

Here I am. Finally writing.

It’s been 3 or 4 years.

I don’t remember.

This is the good part. These days I don’t remember anything.

Everytime some feel something inside me. I can’t put this in words.

Emptiness. (Maybe)

As I said I can’t put this into words.

Please don’t pity on me. I am very bad person. I did some awful things in life. Which I regret very much. I feel guit everyday every moment.

Yes I do want to die.

But I can’t.

I have a girlfriend. She is the reason I can’t die.

Mother, sister…. are also the reason.

I have faced alot. I know. I know everything. Then why I am so sad.

Why ..?

I know life is so precious.

Than why I want to die.

Anyway. I tried twice.:-)

1st time I was child. I don’t know why I even tried.

2end time. … 2 years ago. What a day. 🙂

I lost that day. That was a day when I can be free from all my worries. But I failed.

But I learned…. drug od.. doesn’t work;-)

So as rat poison;-) (kid)

Death is not a good things.

It changes people.

Or may I am the who changed.

I am the one who can’t handle death.

I miss you. I miss you so much.