hate by the one you

I live in a common law relationship. And wen i was younger he told me that him love me. 10 years has past and all i got was beat down to the ground right though. I thought he love me but the thing is he never did. He been with many women and tells me that my breast was just too small for him n he need a women with bigger breast so he can rest his head upon. I dont know what to do but to drug myself everynight and cry because of someone that i hold so dare to my heart has broken it. What should i do now. Somebody plzzz help me…..