Hate this feeling

I hate It when your doing so good then all of sudden something happens & then your like okay no problem but then bad things just keep stacking up & the next thing you know your driving & you start closing your eyes just wanting everything to be over.Like when your so down but you gotta pick yourself up cause your about to see family.Just when I’m starting to see a future for myself I always gotta do something to screw things up.I’ve had 8 jobs this year on my 9 & If this doesn’t work out then I don’t know anymore.