okay so I’m a 15 year old girl( I turn 16, in just over a week) and instead of being absolutely over whelmed with excitement for my birthday, which’ll be spent with friends and false happiness. But nonetheless right now all I’m filled with is a numbness and thoughts that are bad and time consuming.
Its not a new feeling to me considering I’ve been feeling suicidal since I was 10 ( which was the first time I tried to suffocate myself ), the feelings have never really abandoned me, and i always feel like I’m stuck with them. It didn’t help that earlier this year, around March, I finally told everyone that I am feeling down continuously and suicidal, and the doctor announced me as being depressed and I’ve been on the highest dosage of depressants a minor can take. Which sometimes I feel as if are the only reasons I sometimes smile at all.
But yeah, I think I’ve only just found this website because my suicidal thoughts are worsening and I don’t want to go back to hospital when everyone believes I’m getting on the road to recovery, yet I can’t talk to them because I can see the stress and hurt it puts them under. So I was just wondering if someone out there would be willing to talk, or be a friend; preferably in the England region. Also I know I haven’t covered the reasons why I feel so shit, but I hope to be able to talk with somebody about them
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I’m here.
Hi I’m Dean
I’m here to help
Before I go myself
I’m from London England
I hope you are well
Any way I can contact you?
I am too my kik is. itsjustianmooneok
I’m always open to chat
I think I will message you, thank you.
I live far away from england but i’m always open for conversation:) and i will always support you, feel free to email me whenever you need someone to talk to:)xx
How shall I contact you? I’m new to this website
You can kik me, my username is anotherlivingirl and please do not hesitate to chat me up:)
Thank you, I will message now so yeah, thank you xx
I don’t live in England but I’m open anytime for a chat 🙂