I don’t know why it’s so hard to survive in this world. It’s not fair. The rich people live easily and they don’t have to worry and I have to struggle every damn day. It’s hard and I’m trying to carve out a path for myself. Sometimes I wish I was never born. I think it might’ve been easier. I don’t have to struggle to find full time work, I don’t have to pay bills, and I don’t have to worry about anyone. When I think about it I think I’ve suffered from depression on and off for a long time. I’ve contemplated suicide on and off for years too. All my stress, my pain, and my sorrow would go away. I don’t do it because I’m a coward. People would miss me but they’d get over it. I don’t think it’s right that people are born into the world in debt. I don’t think it’s right that some are poor and others are rich. We are told to work hard and follow our dreams but it’s never that easy. Sure I’ll go to college get a useless degree and wrack up a debt I’ll never pay off, that sounds fun! Then I’ll work till I’m 90 and too old to enjoy anything, great! Fuck that shit. I’d rather die then know the boring monotony my life will become. I’m not special, I’m useless. I feel like I failed at everything I’ve tried. I don’t want to try anymore. I want to stop. Life is not worth living if I know I’ll never fully enjoy it.
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I suffer too just because I was born to a very poor family. Life sucks but it’s no use posting rants here. There are only two ways open for people like us. Either find a way to become rich or just kill ourselves.
Yeah it’s hard abs rich people seem miserable too. Seems like no one wins.
rich people have miserable moments, sure but they enjoy life much more than poor people.
So what do you plan to do?
Don’t know. I could keep trying to make it but I feel it would be useless. I just want the struggle and the pain to stop.
I can relate to your post and your frustrations. I have never had real money. Always just getting buy and I have ha LOTS of suffering in my life that makes it almost pointless to keep going. It seems like the only shot I have at ever becoming rich is to buy an occasional lottery ticket and just hope to win. But that is such a long shot, something we obviously cant count on.
Yes, suffering sucks, and YES Life is not fair to everybody. Really makes me wonder about life and our purpose….. why I ask? Why are some so privileged and so many not privileged at all.
Why do some have it so easy and others have to suffer so much. It boggles my mind and often makes me want to end myself. All I can say is You are not alone in your frustrations
thanks for the post
Thank you. Life really isn’t fair. I just want a chance but I feel like I miss out or mess it up. I just wish I didn’t screw up as much as I have. I don’t know if I tried hard enough but it feels like I have.