Well today started out today then it got worse. the thought of me losing him. Why is it that some of the best things in my life never seem to last. I mean we’ve been dating for a few months and now due to him losing his apartment and job from reasons beyond his control. He might have to move back in with his parents in another state more than 5,000 miles away. If this does happen I’m thinking about cutting him off completely. I honestly can not deal with any more heartbreak and I don’t want both of us to suffer by dealing with a long distance relationship. Due to this I hardly ate anything at dinner tonight even after showing up more than 20 minutes late. (due to appetite loss from my depression) Also feeling cut off emotionally though talking with a friend on Skype did help quite a bit 🙂 The sad part enough though I’ve lost quite a bit of weight and changed my hair. The only guys that seem to hit on me are guys that are in my parents age range (40+) why cant just a nice sweet guy my age be interested in me. Well less than 30 days left till fall classes start up and I’ll once again be on my own. 🙂 hopefully these next few weeks will go by peacefully. I am looking forward to one of my friends 21st birthday/ going away party and another friends birthday (hopefully get buzzed at them and have a blast). I am also applying for an adult volunteer position at a local hospital to gain experience in my major and of the world.
Heres a good song to help y’all get through the week.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=al9caTrDT9E