im tried talking to my aunt once again about helping me with supplies I need for euthanasia. I gave her all my logical reasons, told her that I’d feel so much relief just by having it here, even if I wasn’t gonna use it right away. I told her that it’s not fair to force me to live without a peaceful means out and that if I continu living, I’m probably gonna die a painful death anyway. She said “I’ll make you a deal, if you ever become terminally ill I’ll help you”. But I’m NOT terminally ill! I want this instrument of euthanasia. Even if I didn’t do it right away, it would be like having a comforting teddy bear. I’m sound of mind, and have been wanting this for years! Why can’t she help me? I don’t wanna play this fucking game called life anymore and haven’t for a very long time! I didn’t chose to be born, so I shouldn’t be forced to stay.
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Funny how the ‘prison guards’ (all those insisting people be chained to life for as long as possible) are always saying “Life is good”, “It’s so great to be alive”, ” The miracle of birth is so amazing ” (did anyone ask the baby’s opinion?). But there seems to be no consensus as to WHY! Everone has a different answer.
If there is no ONE answer, is there no RIGHT answer?
I couldn’t agree more! I love your insight. When I told her I didn’t chose to be born she always brings up the God thing. She says “you don’t know if you chose to be here or not”. I say – well I sure don’t freaking remember it. I always been afraid of dying a painful and scarey death, even when I was 8. I don’t wanna die of natural causes, I wanna go peacefully by my own accord. I hate the unpredictability of life. I told her that I want to just speed up the process since we are all gonna die anyway. Ugh I’d feel so much better if I had that N canister. At least I wouldn’t feel like I have my back up against the wall. I want to be validated. It’s my experience, not hers. I told her if the roles where reversed, I’d help her die because I love her and would respect her wishes, even if it was hard for me. She’s a spiritualist and believes we all got souls that come down here to learn. I’m an atheist and don’t believe in souls. If I did I’d still wanna do it because I’d imagine a god being all loving and undersranding.
She also said I would go against nature by offing myself. How is that going against nature when nature is going to off us all anyway? Plus the human brain is nature, so is ********. It’s in my nature to want to end it and have control over what I couldn’t when I was born.
Can’t you pick up gases locally from a gas supplier? … they’re for commercial use but basically the same… no?
I can and been thinking about it but I’m not sure where to find them. I think there at the hardware store. My biggest fear is that they won’t be great quality like the ones Exit offers. Im gonna keep having to do research because I don’t wanna mess this up. Gotta get some high quality pure N
Everytime I search online I only seem to find products being sold for industries and major gas companies.
Maybe look up for one for the same purposes exit claims (beer making). I’m guessing the drink/food industry must be forced to use top quality (might be wrong tho).
Hey thank you! God I feel stupid sometimes. Found some ones
It’s still online. Way cheaper than exits but It’s ******** Air canisters, do you know if that’s the same as liquid ********?
I’d be lying if i said i know. Tbh i did read up on inert gas methods a while ago, but i wasn’t too keen on it (and never looked it up further), since there seems to be a pretty big failure rate even when using most precautions. Also the process of getting the materials looked like a constant red flag raiser to me.
Do you mind telling me the links for the ******** you found? I have been looking for helium instead but so hard to get the pure stuff where I’m from. Sucks that your Aunty won’t help you, but understandable as can’t imagine many people would want to help a loved one go especially if you are still young.
Mf, what do you mean by red flags?
Raising suspicions by buying things that regular people wouldn’t buy. Or buying a weird mixture of things that could be used only for a specific/not good purpose. Like if you went into a store and bought rope, a small chair, a bag that fits into your head, and a book about knots (ridiculous example, but you get the idea).
Oh yeah. I thought about making up a story. I wanna get 3 or 4 canisters filled with ******** and use my creativity to set up a death chamber of sorts. Thinking about sticking two hoses though doctors mask, and the other two inside the exit bag. I’m gonna secure everything with duct tape and make sure there in a place so if I move they won’t fall over. This is just pre planning, who knows what my device is gonna look like. One wiiff and I’ll probably pass out if the ******** is pure
Sounds like a regular Art Attack episode to me. (j/k)
People are not terminally ill should stay alive because… Oh wait, just for the heck of it. To not be ‘selfish’. Such valid reasons. I don’t think so. Its not her life what does she know?
Exactly! I got a 31 year history of a miserable life. Don’t see it getting better. In a way I Might as well be terminal. What kind of life am I gonna have if I stay? Oh counseling oh therapy. Fuck that. I been down that road more times than a google steet view car
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