I tried to help a friend – a dear dear friend
It backfired – he hates me
I have nothing nothing left
I am leaving tonight – probably in a few minutes
They may not find me – hopefully not
My kids deserved better
My friend deserved better
I am sorry God
I tried
I failed
And the world is no more worse off than when I entered
Now I leave no more breathing, no more tears
I’m done
Goodbye
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I ask for you to stay for sake of your kids. I wish you peace.
I pray you are still alive..
It might seem like he hates you now but i’m sure he’ll calm down soon.
Your kids and friend don’t want/deserve better – they have, want, and need YOU.
You haven’t failed yet.
Many parents wish for better things for their kids … because we’re parents – we want the best of all things for our kids. But that isn’t always possible. One thing I do know is that kids who have no parent would think it just the absolute BEST thing if they had a plain old ordinary middle of the road “ok” parent at all.
You say your kids “deserve” better … but if you’re gone … will they actually GET something “better”? Because I’m not away of a lot of rags to riches stories of orphaned kids … they tend to end up getting shuffled around and abused and tolerated … Love is a powerful bond that can make the poorest mom or dad look like a superhero … bust out a cape and build a blanket fort with your kids … be their superhero … it shouldn’t be hard – you already are 🙂
non-custodial dad dawg
You deserve better in life, you shouldn’t have to suffer with this pain. I hope you change your mind, I hope you realize it is not your fault. But I know there is only so much one can take before it becomes too much.
I’m wishing you the best, and I hope you’re not gone yet.
Still not gone – I decided to talk to someone
The anxiety I have inside feels like its going to kill me – I just don’t understand why I’m here.. like this.
My children do love me – I still think they deserve better.. but thank you for all of your kindness
I am fighting – still…
Glad to hear. It will feel weird talking with someone at first. It will be easier over time. You took a very important step and I’m happy for you!
I’m glad to see this. I’ve thought about you since I read the post yesterday. Glad you decided to seek help.