This is 2nd my post. I am not suicidal right now. But it still feels worse.
Yesterday I took the knife pressed it’s sharp end on my wrist. It didn’t cut. But it was the closest I came to hurting myself. Today I want to hurt myself but I don’t have the courage. I hope when I cut myself, the little cut will open and all the frustration and negative things go outside. There’s too much dark content inside me, that needs to get out.
Is it good that I think that cutting is better than suicide. Can cutting can relieve me off this desperation or whatever this is. My head feels so heavy, the best thing I believe is that someone smashes my head with hammer until it’s just sweet pain. I wish I had a normal life.
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Cutting relieves tension in the moment. But trust me, from experience, relief in the moment isn’t worth it if you are harming yourself to get it.
Try and exercise or music. You’ll likely get a similar rush.
Please don’t cut.
Hi. I wouldn’t recommend cutting to relieve your pain. It’s something that can make your life even harder and more difficult. I would find something I liked if I were you. I would play or go on walks. But cutting…it can only get worse. Believe me. It’s like having ‘I am a freak’ tattooed on your forehead. It is how others see it and whether you want it or not, they can make you feel worse.