i fucking hate people its no fucking use no matter what i do people always think its the worst thing i cant explane it because no one wants to believe me or they all think im fucking crazy. i have no choice ether people are going to kill me or i just have to take my own life that’s it. my mom told me i can be happy i just have to choose it but i don’t have a choice people are always going to think what they are going to think and i cant change there minds because everyone hates me. no one cares about what i think no one cares about how i feel. all they know is what someone else told them. i give up i just give the fuck up. im defiantly in fucking hell, i committed suicide and went state to hell. then people want to get mad at me because dont believe in god yeah fucking right give me a reason to, and i swear if one persons says well your alive im going to fucking find you just so i can punch you in the throat. because if god where real and and he loved me i would be dead right now and i would have peace, but no here i am in the 40th circle of hell reliving all my worst nightmares and fears over and over again. people make me want to vomit i cant stand being around them anymore. my whole fucking family knows about this shit and whats going on and they still wont help me or talk to me about it, its all in my fucking head. even tho there’s proof and one of them has it. ether way im fucked and im going to be killed or im going to kill myself why bother with any other options they always lead to the same thing