I’ve lost everything, my friends, my sister, my happiness. I use to be the happy person that would high five everyone in the hallway, the person you could count on. “Your the problem” “your not good enough” “why would I wanna hang out with a freak like you’ is all I hear now. Rejection and misery welcome me like my blanket at night. My friend’s all turned their back on me, and my sister, the only family I felt I could actually talk to and enjoy, is gone from this world, now all I have is my yorkie, I went into homeschool because the bullying got so bad, its sad that as such a young age I wanna give up hope, and cave in to my dark thoughts. I wasn’t always like this, society made me out to be this way.
I just found this site. I hope something on here will give me a spark of hope, and maybe a reason to smile again.
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I don’t know if it will give you a spark of hope or a reason to smile, but people here are quite nice and ready to listen to you.
I think that in these kind of situation the best thing to do is to ignore other people’s words, anyway i hope that you’ll find a reason to smile. 🙂
I feel I lost everything too. I used to be the person that was friends with everyone and talked to anybody I was with. I was the one who was there for everyone. But when I couldn’t stretch myself any thinner, people started leaving me. I soon became a worthless disappointment, the terrible uncaring friend. I wasn’t good enough. My three best friends left me and I did the last two years of high school by myself pretty much. My sister was the only one I could talk to about anything, but then she joined the military and moved clear across the country. She’s still alive, but she’s too emotionally unstable to talk to about anything. I almost gave up on life a couple times throughout high school, even a couple in college.
I’n 20 now. And I’ve learned to not count on people. To not listen to others. Most people are only living for the benefit of themselves and leave us behind once they’re done. I don’t need friends, because they don’t need me. I’ve learned to become content with just myself. I have maybe two people in my life I somewhat trust, but even they have turned their back on me a couple times. That’s just what humans do. My only bully anymore is myself because I don’t listen to what anyone else has to say.
You used to be that encouraging bright light for everyone.. What happened for it all to be turned around on you and to have to resort to homeschooling?
I was homeschooled for my elementary school. I hated it. But i finished my school day pretty early so that wasnt too bad. There are certain moments that things in life can perform a straight 180. On a dime. And youre left in the dust thinkin: what the hell just happened? I’m interested in how things turned around for you… But you know what? if you had such a radical shift in how you were received, I know for a fact you will experience another pivotal moment in your future where things will turn around. Trust me.