14 year old girl. Anxiety makes up my life. Can’t do anything, can’t see anyone, can’t be anyone. I get sick to my stomach with anxiety every morning before school. Someone help with these attacks. They are killing me.
I just feel so shit all the time, everything I do always turns out wrong. My anxiety stops me from doing everything and I hate the fact I can’t do anything about it. I’m so scared to even speak to someone. I feel so useless now, no point doing anything if it never turns out right. I just generally just can’t do this, not fitting in anywhere. Laurens got other mates now and I’m left in the middle and I hate it. I’m so depressed and I’ve got no one to tell. Mum just doesn’t understand anything and I obviously don’t have anxiety because I met someone who I didn’t know, but I was so so so scared to and she doesn’t realise it. All because I actually managed to meet someone now it means I don’t have anxiety anymore. I just would rather sit alone in school because I still feel like I can’t speak to anyone anymore. Everything I do or say I feel like I’m being judged. Im always so paranoid on how I look and what people are going to say or what people are saying. I hate my self, I hate that I don’t get along with anyone. I hate that I can’t do anything write anymore. What’s the point in trying. I really cannot do this anymore. I’m done.
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I had mild anxiety when I was your age, and much more severe anxiety when I was 17-18. You can overcome it. Please don’t think that your life will stay this way. All those thoughts and feelings you have, feeling judged and paranoid, hating yourself – you won’t always be haunted by them. Please don’t give up. You can get past this.
Have you seen a doctor and had any help for it yet? There are all kinds of therapies and techniques to help with anxiety (and feeling depressed): CBT, NLP, all kinds of other letter combinations, meditation, hypnosis, etc. It could be helpful to join an anxiety forum and see how other people have been cured. There are lots of options out there. You just need to find one or two that are right for you. When you find help, whether it’s through a doctor, support group, therapy programme, a book or anywhere else, it might take time to get better, but in that time you’ll be feeling better bit by bit. It’ll start to feel worth it. You might feel powerless and just want all those feelings to end, but they can end with you getting your life back.
Ahh anxiety it’s such a pain in “le derriere”!
Anyway, i second what Trix said, and i’ll ad an advice of my own…
Challenge yourself! Set goals! Start by doing little things like saying hello, making a compliment… and things will escalade eventually.
Be strong! 🙂
Trix and Darvin gave excellent comments. I was diagnosed with social phobia at 13. I sometimes talk to people when I need to but it’s painful and I have a lot of anxiety when leaving the house.
During that time my mom didn’t understand why I couldn’t go to school. I was able to talk with the counselors and she believed at first that I was just being lazy. I told a school counselor I wanted to kill myself, then I told my therapist and that’s how I ended up getting help. I know it’s scary but please give yourself a chance. I was so scared; I was in a psych ward around strangers but I’m grateful I took that chance.
I was thirteen when I begged for help. Sometimes you have to do what’s best for you and your future. You deserve to be able to live your life without this anxiety. Please be safe.
Anxiety is a wound up top with no place to spin. One foot in front of the other and keep moving. I’d like to say it gets better but for me it is a like surfing a tidal wave. I don’t think there is a cure, but there is a path to healing.
I swim and swim laps at the YMCA. It helps. Moving helps. Breathing helps. I’m sorry you are in this situation.