I’m sorry if I am not allowed to ask this. Also sorry if this subject upsets or triggers anyone.
For those of you that cut,
- do you do it quickly or slowly.
- Is it one single swipe, or do you take your time and pick at it.
- Do you always make a new cut or do you revisit old or recent cuts.
- Do you feel what you would class as a normal amount of pain given what you are doing.
- Do you dress the wounds yourself or do you ever go to the hospital afterwards.
I’d just like to know if I am the same.
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koki,
Don’t know never did it, but please don’t do that.
I wish it was that easy rocketman. Ive only made 4 cuts. 3 required a visit to the hospital to sort out. It already feels like something I cant avoid. Like an addiction. An addiction to punishing myself.
I always cut quickly and I always use a new sterile scalpel blade. I hold the blade between finger and thumb and I adjust how much blade is exposed so I control how deep I cut.
I always start with cutting my left arm and I quickly slash it 6 times them do the same to my right arm. I never go over an old cut, I just cut beside or between old cuts but I have been cutting for years and my arms are all scar tissue now.
There is only ever a small amount of pain but it always depends on my mood, the more depressed or angry I am the less I feel the pain. I never dress my wounds, I just wrap a bath towel around each arm until the bleeding stops then leave them uncovered.
I have had to visit the hospital about 5 or 6 times because I cut veins or an artery. One time I cut and it was still pumping out blood 15 hours later so I went to hospital and I had managed to cut 2 veins and an artery. I do sometimes cut words into my arms or legs, usually “cockless freak” or just “freak”
My sessions tend not to really require any medical attention with the exception of one really bad one that needed stitches. For me it’s always stress relieving, like smoking. There are times when I need to draw it out slowly or I’m just frustrated so I rather just repeat the motion quickly without really paying any mind. Even though they only go so deep my body takes a while to heal so I usually clean em up and maybe dress them. But I will constantly touch at the bumps and scabs…I guess for texture. Something about it is kinda calming.
I’m so, so sorry that you feel the desire to hurt yourself. 🙁 I used to as well. But I didn’t cut. Instead, I had this semi-short length of chain that used to be a dog collar, and I would hit myself with it. Usually throw it over my shoulder and lash my back. I preferred that method because it satisfied my violent self-loathing without leaving any scars. I hope and pray that you’ll stop hurting yourself all together, but maybe consider using a method that doesn’t leave scars? You might be thankful later in life that you did? Or maybe that’s a bad idea, I don’t know. I’m sorry. 🙁
Im so sorry you cut love. I cut swift, always in long lines, and I make it as deep as I can in one swipe. And I will cut over new and old cuts- it doesnt matter to me. A good friend of mine suggested holding an icecube in ach hand… it doenst always work, but it has saved me a couple times. Unfortunately, I like the bumps and scabs like @deerdezz said, and I like the blood… im sorry that was super morbid. Anyways that’s what I do. I hope you find another way to deal with what it is your going through love. I send love and light your way 🙂
I’m sorry you started, I’ve been cutting for 6 months now and I guess i’m not one to try to stop you.
I personally prefer cut in one fast fluent movement. I make mine long and deep so mine bleed a lot, I keep cutting new ones but its up to you. I have always treated my cuts myself it just takes up to 2 hours to stop bleeding. I hope you are strong enough to stop or to find another way to cope but for now I hope you find the light at the other side of the tunnel!
I’m sorry you’ve felt the need to start doing that. If I’m looking for a “quick fix” than i’ll revert to fast across, but if I’m really looking to take a lot out than i’ll go slower. I do about four in a time. I’m really bad about making new cuts but most of the time i just try to revisit old ones. I feel it’s a normal amount of pain due to I’ve been doing it for three years. If i’m at home I like to do it in the shower. I dress and take care of them myself. I really hope you find another way to cope. <3<3
Thanks for everyone’s comments. For me it hasnt been about the release of tension. Its more about punishment for me. Ive been doing them slowly. My last cut took about an hour to do. It was about 6 inches long and maybe quarter inch deep. I got to the point where I couldnt feel pain anymore so stopped. Afterwards I obsess over looking at the wound which is all part of making me feel bad.
The tension builds up. And it just drains away. The throbbing pain is a comfort. I have a couple fixes that stops me for months at a time but when I stop my solutions I go right back at it. It’s like a switch that throws in my head and my God it feels so fucking good.
I sound like a lunatic.
1. The cuts are usually quick
2. Usually just one quick motion, sometimes if its not long enough or deep enough I’ll fix it.
3. Never cut over scar tissue, its harder to get through.
4. At first I think it hurts a normal amount for what I’m doing but by the 3rd of 4th one I start to get that high and the pain lessens.
5. Never been to a medical professional for my cuts. I should have for some of them but I just wrap it up and deal with the consequences myself.
1. I cut quickly, i usually do more than one swipe at my skin
2.i revist cuts for the sole purpose of having an excuse (like saying that scar was there before)
4. its kinda a normal amount of pain it just gets easier with each cut
5. I have to dress the wounds myself