cutting…….

I always cut quickly and I always use a new sterile scalpel blade. I hold the blade between finger and thumb and I adjust how much blade is exposed so I control how deep I cut.

I always start with cutting my left arm and I quickly slash it 6 times them do the same to my right arm. I never go over an old cut, I just cut beside or between old cuts but I have been cutting for years and my arms are all scar tissue now.

There is only ever a small amount of pain but it always depends on my mood, the more depressed or angry I am the less I feel the pain. I never dress my wounds, I just wrap a bath towel around each arm until the bleeding stops then leave them uncovered.

I have had to visit the hospital about 5 or 6 times because I cut veins or an artery. One time I cut and it was still pumping out blood 15 hours later so I went to hospital and I had managed to cut 2 veins and an artery. I do sometimes cut words into my arms or legs, usually “cockless freak” or just “freak”