I have wholeheartedly decided to end it all on Tuesday (when i have money). You are all so kind, it has warmed my heart. However, my pain is too strong and this is the only way
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I want to end it all too
I have some money.
I don’t think im allowed to discuss on here, are we allowed to email?
Trust me, i understand. I won’t dissuade you (i wasn’t trying to convince you otherwise either the other day) but please, make sure of what you’re doing. You really don’t want to end up in a worse state than you are now. I do hope you find the relief that you’re looking for (in any way possible, better if in life).
Mf has a point. Please think this through completely. Are you going to stick around here in the meantime?
yeah, going to keep talking to everyone
Mm, well I definitely understand that you seek an ending. That being said, even when you lose everything, maybe something good will pop up. I definitely feel as if I’ve lost everything, and somehow I feel a lot better about life (perhaps because I’ve been listening to music all day). And yes, that was a poor man’s attempt at trying to change your mind. I for one don’t think you should kill yourself. The straw that broke the camels back was a breakup, you said? Well, then I’m sure you can find a way to lift that straw off your back somehow, and make life more bearable with time.
Anyways, I hope you keep posting and stay around until Tues. And I really hope you change your mind.
i had been dropping in mood for a while, the breakup tipped me over the edge
I hope that you think about this. You have accomplished a lot in life and overcome so much. Take a moment to give yourself some well-deserved credit. I think you can accomplish even more if you give yourself the chance.
I’ve been busy helping a lot of other people and many have come and gone so frequently. What IS your pain? I haven’t offered MY input, I don’t think.
so, I have a physical disability called Arthrogryposis. This affects my joints. My hands are twisted and my arms don’t bend and i can’t raise them in the air. I have limited movement in my legs so can’t walk very far. I also have 2 metal rods in my back. I can’t do any personal care for myself.
Due to this condition I have severe nerve pain in my right leg. Doctors can’t control this. People don’t see me as a person, I can’t get a job because people see my disability first and judge.
To really top it off my bf ended the relationship after almost 7 years together. He has still been supportive over the past few months, but, has suddenly stopped talking to me.
All this may not seem much to others, but, for me, i’m fed up. When I die I can be free from pain and disability and be with God. This is why i have made this decision
I just have to say….I don’t know whether or not you’re a religious person or where you stand with God and creation and all of that but if you do believe in God, do you really think taking your life would be right by him? I don’t know about you but I believe life and death are all in the hands of God. Not that I don’t understand what you’re saying though. I get that you’re in pain. But maybe consider the idea that this God you’re hoping to go to won’t be too pleased with you. He never gives you more than you can handle (just my thoughts). If he wanted you to come to him at this very moment, you WOULD be. Please rough this out if you can!! Just my two cents.
i don’t know how to tell my friends/family. I mean i don’t know what to put in a note. They will never understand
I’m sorry to hear of your ordeal. I can’t begin to imagine the situation you live with but I understand your justification. I can only wish you a speedy process.
For the note, personally, I think honesty is the only way. Explain why you feel this is the right solution. How much detail do you want to divulge and how will those reading it react if there is too much or too little? Well thats a question only you can answer…
I am a big christian, I do believe God gives life and takes it away. I don’t believe God gives us what we can handle, but everything is for our good. I just long to be with him so badly. I will be free from disability in heaven with my father.
I wish I could hear more about your life. You strike me as being sincere and wonderful
Thank you, that is so kind. You can ask me anything
I wish I could hear more about your relationships with your family and friends. It is clear that you care for them deeply. Yet, do any of them know the true depth of your pain?
How long have you been in pain from your nerve? I understand getting relief for the pain has been very difficult. How have you coped with it as long as you have?
I do care a lot for them and don’t want to hurt them. Only my ex and 1 carer truly know how i feel. I have had thee pain for almost 3-4 years now, I have a steroid injection every 3 months which takes the edge off it.
Your ex sounds as though he had been your principle support for so much of your life and it is heart wrenching to think of what it is to meet and grow with another person, to be dependent on them for support, only for them to withdraw.
That is such an incredibly long time to be in physical pain. Did I hear that there have been complications in working with medical professionals? Is there truly is nothing further that could be done for the physical pain?
Could you say more regarding your relationship with your caregiver? I know it would not be easy to be open with someone in your life at this point, but I wish to express that you deserve to have a supportive connection with someone who is in your life, for someone to be able to be there with you in your life.
my ex has been a massive part of my life, he has always been there for me,m now he isn’t, i am alone. Doctors have done everything they can to prevent my pain.. My support worker knows how low i am,, she knows i am suicidal, she doesn’t know i am planning anything
I have seen you be the soul that gathers her strength to face death all the while expressing compassion for others. You are remarkable. I hope that you would not see me as in any way in denial of the ordeal that you continuously face if I were to explore further. I wish only that you could have the individuals in your life strong enough to work with you towards your obstacles. Could you tell me of your experiences with support sources like talk support lines or mental health professionals?
i had a counsellor in January for 3 weeks, thats been it from the NHS. Lev, I can’t take this pain, i need to end it
As much as someone in my position can, I want to be here for you and keep talking. I know results from counseling can be very varied, especially for over short periods of time such as that. I don’t mean to prolong your pain, but if we were to develop a plan to reduce your mental pain, would that be enough for you to be able to stay with us longer and talk more?
What’s ur email
are we allowed to share emails?
Yeah why not
i don’t think its allowed, we can chat here though
People share emails all the time princess. 🙂
oh sorry, thought it was against rules, can i email you?
I’m in a lot of pain as well, I want to end it all also. I was hoping in email you could tell me how. Since it sounds deffinate that you can on a certain day when the money comes. I have some money right now and I want to use it to help me out too. My email is.
ausername741 @ gmail.com
I emailed you
Princess, it is against the rules to discuss methods. three rules:
No methods
No partners
No hate.
i havent given any information, just asked whats going on for this person, is that ok?
Good morning Princess. I am glad you are still visiting with us.
Hi, yeah, I was at church this morning,has helped a little bit