so i thought my roommate would be gone the whole weekend but she came back today. and she was on speakerphone with her mom in the other room. and i heard them talking about the rent so i started listening. and then they were talking about the dishes of my mine that she stuck in a garbage bag in front of my door.and her mom was telling her to be nice and to do them for me but my roommate kept telling her she was just going to throw them in the dumpster.then she was telling her mom how shed be really happy if she doesnt see me in the three weeks leading up to winter break. and even though i just really want to push her off the balcony everytime i see or think about her, it really hurt. i mean i don’t want to see her either. but all this self hate is coming back to me and to hear someone physically say that they dont want to see me really hurt. and so i didnt know if she was going to throw my dishes out or not so i poked my head out the door when she got off the phone and i was basically crying and i asked her to please not throw my dishes away and she knows now that i heard her conversation and i know i shouldntve been listening but i couldnt help it. and know i need help, professional help, because im starting to have bad anger issues and i almost badly injured myself today just to see how far id go. and theres one person i want to talk to but i dont want to interupttheir life with my problems and this person i know can help me get a good therapist but i have no logical way of paying for the therapist due to the fact im still on my parents insurance and i dont want to talk tothem at all about my issues or let them know. and i dont even know if our insurance covers therapy. so i have no possible way currently to get the help i am actually starting to want.
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are you in college?
yes. im in my first semester.
Your roommate is a….terrible person for saying and doing all of that. She has no right to throw your dishes in the dumpster unless she is going to pay you back. Roommates can be really awful I know. And I know that therapy is expensive and you don’t want your family to know, but you should definitely try and talk to someone. Especially your trying to hurt yourself. I know there might not be many people you can trust and talk to, or no one at all, but I’d say call a hotline, or go to support groups in your local area. You are too precious to be hurting yourself like that. Even if you can’t, I’m here and you can talk to me any time you’d like.
Take Care <3
the person im talking to is the only person i trust because last year when i was at my worst and convinced myself that no one would give a shit if i died, they showed me that they cared. they didnt know what was going on in my life at the time, but they do know now and ive been somewhat talking to them, but the problem is, is that this person is someone i cant really just talk to out of the blue about everything going on in my life. theyve helped me with some of my major problems and now they have offered to help me find a therapist to talk to because they go to one, but the problem is, and they understand this, is that i dont want to tell my parents but they know i cant go to therapy without talking to them and seeing if i can at least get some of it covered by my insurance. but this person has their own life and problems and i dont want to put my problems onto them. they have their own family, with a wife, and three kids, and i just feel like i can fully discuss everything thats happening with myself without putting it on them and i dont want to do that to them.
Hi maybe in your area there r other options or support groups or some info on geting the help u need have a look on google your roomate has issues and needs to sort them because this is no way to act
You’re probably covered by the Children’s Health Insurance Program (CHIP) regardless of what kind of insurance your parents have. No doubt you’re still going to have to talk to your parents. You could try calling 800-318-2596, which is the health marketplace helpline. You might be able to buy your own plan with very little money… at least until you’re 21.
Personally, I think you should do it through your parents’ insurance. If they get too nosy tell them to mind thier own business or you will find another way to finance your healthcare needs.
And tell your roommate next time she pulls a stunt like that she’ll be the one in the garbage bag. Jeeze.
im actually planning on moving out of the apartment in 3 weeks, but i havent told my roommate that yet. and i actually did the same thing to her when she left her dishes in the sink and she cussed me out over text and then her family and my family had to have a formal discussion about being considerate. and ill check out CHIP and the helpline to see if i can get around the parent issue, thank you! if i cant do that i might try to come up with an excuse of why i want to see a therapist that doesnt involve my depression, because i dont know if my insurance covers therapy, but im thinking it should at least cover a few appointments at the least
“her family and my family had to have a formal discussion”
JFC, do you go to a Mormon school? Families “discussing” things usually involves firearms here.
Here’s how it works with your parents insurance:
Mom, Dad, I need the insurance card. … You really don’t need to know why. I’m an adult now and am completely capable recognizing that I need a doctor to look at an infected injection site. … Oh, ha ha ha. A little joke. Now give me the card.
Then you take the card, get out if earshot of your parents, call the toll free number, give them your policy number, and start asking questions.
Good luck!
Nice moving out have a good move n she rely dont deserve to kno u moving out
i have to tell her though, because if she releases me from the lease then i wont be entirely legally responsible for the 7 months of rent im ditching out on, ill only have to pay a fine for leaving early. so im trying to get on her good side again before i tell her just so itll be easier on everyone when i leave.