22, male suffering from emotional, mental and physical pain.
No real friends. They all left after high school and the ones I kept are either doing their own thing or gone separate ways. I don’t go out or socialize. If I do, it’s rare.
Riddled with anxiety. Can’t get a girlfriend, still a Virgin. Hopeless at talking to girls and developing new friendships or relationships. Good talk but never goes anywhere far. I’m seen as too nerdy or mature. I just hate how people view me as some sort of stranger.
Physical pain. Suffering from back pain, shoulder pain, knee pain. Can’t do anything physical anymore. Job involves heavy lifting, can’t quit because I need money for school. In pain everyday and extremely worried about nerve and joint damage. PT is expensive, long wait times for MRI, dunno what’s wrong.
Overall loser. Still no college education. Dropped out once, unemployed for 1.5 years, still no money saved up. School coming up and I have little money,also school is another additional stress. No car, don’t drive, work crappy retail job, no real accomplishments, no savings.
Already attempted suicide once, failed. Got better but now tonnes of issues thrown my way. I literally do not see an alternative. Sorry for the weird typing, I’m on my phone.
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I am facing similar issues to you, though I am a year older and am not experiencing any physical problems. I am improving little by little, and the way I see it is that if nothing happens by the time I’m 25 I am ending it. Give yourself a little more time. Something might be lurking just around the corner.
I used to have many problems too when I was 22. I also considered suicide. Now I am 23 and I am better. You should wait at least one more year. Set up a date and if things don’t get better then you can leave…
I’m sorry to read this. I’d prob say give it more time to see how things pan out. Although from what I’m reading here it looks like your life will continue to go downhill as the physical problem will probably eventually become very expensive to fix/manage
Where are your parents will they allow you to live with them? If they are not idiots…
I mean if they are not idiots in personality sorry my writing is stuffed up
I live with my parents. They’re supportive, but aren’t aware of the severity of it. I feel like telling them wikl cause more problems.
I know what it’s like, to be young and normally healthy one minute, then to be sidelined just before my 21st birthday. I used to walk everywhere and I was fine. Then I had my spine messed up on purpose, by an idiot doctor. Then I couldn’t walk, and gained massive weight. I got the state dept of rehabilitation to put me in PT, but that was hell, and their only aim was for me to lose weight. When I didn’t lose any, they dropped me. I managed to walk again, but I’ve seen how you can “lose your life” in the blink of an eye. By that, I just mean, I lost my chance at a normal life, being able to walk and stand and work like a normal adult. And here I’ve made it to 38, 17 years of living in excruciating pain. Finally got a doctor to say I must have nerve damage and a real pain disorder, but being in a small clinic known for where trans people get their hormones, there’s nothing they can really do for my pain and they can’t declare me disabled. No one who has the power to decide who’s disabled and who isn’t will declare me disabled. And it sucks, because I’ve missed out on having a normal life. Maybe I could’ve done something with myself if I hadn’t been disabled young. I feel for ya. It’s not fair at all, to be young and in pain and crippled by it. :'(
I’m not crippled, but I don’t want to do anything due to a mixture of the pain and depression and anxiety. I have a history of overthinking and catastrophizing, so let’s hope I’m wrong about this one.
I used to be stuck at home cause of back pain. The only thing that actually worked was physical therapy. Back exercises that hurt for like the first year. Then i kept doing it n now i only do it when my back hurts. Sometimes. I had nerve problems and all but i just do back exercises for years now
Just keep trying the physical therapy, even when u dont want to. AND i would get a new job. Theres a job out there for everybody.