I wish I could be happy.
I wish I wasn’t a failure.
I wish my mom would stop telling me that I don’t make her proud.
I wish my dad didn’t walk out of my life before it even started.
I wish I was skinnier.
I wish I could stop cutting.
I wish I could die.
I wish I didn’t want to die.
I wish my existence wasn’t ignored by most people, even family.
I have a house, I just wish I had a home.
I wish things were different
But nothing will ever change
So I wish that when I kill myself, no one wishes that I didn’t.
Because if no one cared before death, then why bother after death.
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You should know that it DOES matter whether you’re dead or not. I’m certain that many people would miss you if you were to die.
Besides, there are a lot of people out here who can relate to you and also I can understand what you feel like.
I know exactly what it is like to be a failure and also what it is like to be ignored by everyone, being unhappy, having the desire to die, … but at least my parents are most time on my side and try to help me with many things. And I’m pretty sure that your family would do the same. Maybe they just have no idea how to show it.
I know that it’s hard to have that burden all by yourself, without anyone helping you carrying it. But nevertheless try to fight, I’m sure it will be worth it.
I hope that someday everything gets better for you and you finally find your path to happiness and an easygoing life.
I wish you all the best for your future.
im still here. im well. are you?