Wow…
If I wasn’t so apathetic right now, I’d be shocked down to my core…
I never thought it possible to get emotionally lower than I was feeling before… But here I am, unable to even think, my last drop of energy being used earlier today when I walked home from my studies…
I don’t even have the energy to kill myself. If I had energy, I’d do it right now, as this is unbearable, but I cannot be bothered to get up from my chair for nothing in the world…
If the building would just collapse on me and excuse me of all the work involved in killing myself, it’d be much appreciated…
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Hi alexther, I’m sorry that you still seem to be at the end of your rope. I was thinking of you the other day, wondering how your struggle has been going and I posted some music for you. I wasn’t sure if you were still alive. I’ll say something selfish and say I’m happy you are still alive, but sad you are in this state. What happened?
Same old reasons that got me suicidal in the first place, but the weight is beginning to add too much pressure for me to handle…
I searched for that post of yours just now. Thank you very much for sharing that song, I really enjoy it.
I think of you each time I log in here. There isn’t much I can off you aside from someone to listen. And encourage you to start walking down your own path as soon as you are able. I really think you are made of the kind of stuff to get past this. That anger could really give you the drive to live well. The best revenge is walking away, never looking back and living well.