I wounder everyday, for what reason have I been put on this planet, why was I born – what difference am I making to this shitty world? The struggle for everyday survival, the 9-5 deadbeat job and the same constant fucking routine; that we call everyday life.
I can’t move on, there’s nothing to look forward to anymore, nothing to smile, care, love and be happy about; Just pain, misery loneliness. I walk down the street, see happy people all around me, couples holding hand – kissing, children playing etc. The people who helped destroy my relationship, the ones who I once called friends – all fucking happy, but me.
i can’t do this anymore, thought I was on the path to getting better.. I just want to die
King
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Hi King, I just wanted to let you know I read our post. Keep walking forward, even though it is tough. Here: youtube.com/watch?v=HjK30nhy7CU
Mea Culpa is a phrase used to admit fault. Sometimes the fault of the awful things in my life are due to the people around me, sometimes it is from my own personal mistakes. Either way it is a form of apology, in confession it shows the sinners acknowledgement of tier fault with understanding that God still loves them, in sports it is acknowledging a good game lost after playing hard and acknowledging the mistakes made.
So mea culpa. it is okay to make mistakes, get past them. Walk forward. I’ve stood where you have stood, it isn’t easy to walk forward. The thing about walking forward is there are people waiting for you, you only need meet them.
I ask myself this question every day. If not for my family, who see more to life than I do, I wouldn’t be here. I do the same BS routine everyday in hopes that I will make their lives easier one day. That’s the only point to my life. To make my family’s lives a little better. The only reason I wake up every morning and fight through the pain.
It’s hard. It doesn’t getting any easier. I wish I had something to say to make you feel better. But I have nothing.
I’m really sorry that you feel this way King.