Lately I’ve tried to respond to posts here on SP and for some reason they don’t show up. Wtf? Even SP is rejecting me. I am at the end of my rope. I’m unemployed and can’t find a job and I’m going to run out of money soon. I’m scared and alone and freaking out. I just want to sleep forever and not have to deal with this nightmare called life. I wish I could find the strength to over come my fear of failing at my suicide attempt. The method I have access to takes about 24 hours and I’m scared of getting found too soon and of the suffering before death. I just wish I could find a job and be able to support myself again. I also wish I wasn’t so alone in life. It should be easier to die but it’s not. Sorry I just needed to rant. Maybe if I continue to feel this way I will find the courage to end it.
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Could the comments have to be approved by OP? If so, they only show up after OP has done that.
Please don’t kill yourself. Tell me about your situation.
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Thanks so much for your post. I realize that so much time has gone by that you will probably never read this. Sorry about that. Im a royal fuck up. I was so upset that I drank myself silly and passed out instead of looking for jobs.
Hey 🙂
No worries. I usually eat myself silly and pass out, but to each their own.
Take care 🙂
SP can be weird sometimes, comments go to moderation or spam box, i guess even artificial intelligence makes mistakes. If your comments are not spams then don’t take it personal, errors happen all the time.
Now, to get to the point of this comment:
I really wish you could think of this again. You know, to give yourself another chance.
I know loneliness it’s hard to deal with but with the right amount of effort, we can make wonders and overcome our fears.
Peace.
Thanks for your comment. See above for explanation on my late response. My post still never showed up. I’m not sure why. You are right though, I need to make more effort.
Hey Dyinginny your comments have been really helpfull to me. We don’t reject you. We like you.
Don’t give up on searching for a job, it always takes a long time, so, fight on!
Don’t let the bad times take all the credit, good times are also there for you.
Thanks Moneypenny. How are you? I hope you are feeling better. Your kind words mean a lot to me.
I keep having my ups and downs, so I am going to say I am fine. thank you for asking 🙂
How are you now after waking up again? Will you rest a little now? Please don’t go so hard on yourself. Do rest, it’s Saturday after all…
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Im in the same boat. Have been suffering from loneliness and anxiety my entire life. Absolutely terrified of the future. The pain from the depression feels like my chest is being compressed by a very heavy object. Having to live with this perpetual pain is torture. Its unfortunate that we have to resort to painful methods to permanently alleviate suffering. Assisted suicide for the chronically depressed is legal in Belgium. How I wish the laws were more relaxed and that society showed some modicum of compassion for the mentally ill in this country.