HOW TO KILL YOURSELF

Now that I have your attention,

You are probably thinking that this post will be about how to actually kill yourself. Well it is and it isn’t.

I had one of those god knows how to spell the bloody word apifiny, nope doesn’t look right. Anyway one of those light bulb moments.

Flash of genius, whatever you wanna call it.

I realised the only true, successful, way to kill yourself without really physically killing yourself is to just get in there and slaughter the hell out of your thoughts, feelings, actions, demons, and the list goes on.

Throw a bomb in there and explode them all in to a million pieces.

Steralize the fuck out of all those things that infect and poison your brain, mind, heart and soul.

Other people and other situations in our life made us like this.

We were born perfect beautiful innocent pure souls that got destroyed by all sorts of things in our lives, abuse, neglect, bad parents, no parents, the list is huge. You all know where it started. None of us have had a perfect life where everything has gone perfect from day one.

But what I’m trying to say is everything we think and feel is not ours.

Someone else originally put them there by something they either did to us or said to us and over time we believed it until it became so much of a part of us that it became our real thoughts and feelings (or so it seems)

But they are not.

We have a choice in any given moment what we think, what we feel, what we do.

We no longer have to be controlled by anything or anyone.

We can take back our power that we gave away to someone else or something else. That part of you that died because of something that happened to you is not dead its just covered up by a whole heap of very thick mud that needs to be washed away.

Deep down inside of you is still that pure beautiful perfect soul.

Please give yourself the chance to find it again.

And please feel free to express your concerns, or disbeliefs, or questions

or but how do I get over this or past this or whatever and I’ll do my best to answer that.

I experienced some stuff over the weekend that has I guess changed me,

opened my eyes to things, given me some answers, and well basically I was told I’m not aloud to

give up

quit

take the easy road

or cop out of life

because I’m here to help others

so if you let me I will.

I can’t promise you I can give you the perfect answer or solution to your problems as I’m still working things out myself, but I can promise I will try.

And I will try my best as I don’t believe in doing things half-heartedly.

I always try to accept & understand everyones unique experience and I will never judge or make you feel less of a person than you might already be feeling.

I am and always have been an angel of unconditional love & acceptance.

Think I need to change my id as the suicidal part is starting to heal.