There were many indications and hints long ago that something is off about me. There was a big fear that this thing that I call a life would never function like it is suppose to. Did anyone help? I don’t feel like they did but knowing how delusional I can be with my mind only thinking so negatively, they probably did.
Was it it helpful, I can easily say that no it didn’t really help me. Here I am years later with all of my issues amplified with new ones created. All of these problems coupled with the lack of energy that holds me down every day. I wish I could be free but I’m trapped in my own mind. I wish I could do the things that I want but it always turns to shit.
None of these things matter if I take my own life, it’s literally the only way I can see of escaping.
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I feel ya blank-clutter. Very astute of you to acknowledge that perhaps people did try to help, however the curse of a negatively-tuned mind may keep one from fully realizing that. May I inquire how old you are?
I’m 25. It’s not that my thoughts have always been negative but they have turned negative after years of failure