Everyone will let you down.
It sounds pessimistic, but it’s true. It’s sort of inevitable. When I was younger, I thought that if someone loved you, you automatically loved them back. I thought that everyone would have that perfect, fairy-tale ending. I thought everyone would find their soulmates and all the beautiful feelings of adoration would be reciprocated. Unfortunately for eight-year-old me, this isn’t the case. The sad truth is, you could love someone and give them the world and they could still not give a single damn about you. And you could do the same to them. It took me a long time to figure out that not everyone is going to like you and you aren’t going to like everyone. That’s just the way life works. People only look out for themselves. They don’t care. I thought friends would always be at your side, but I was wrong. I thought family would always support you, but I was wrong. I thought people were truly good, but I was wrong. You could be dying, or in pain, or desperate for help, and no one would step up and do something. No one does anything. You just have to become self-reliant.
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Wow. This hits something for me.
Yup, friends all left me. If you’ve ever read some of my replies to other posts, on frequent one would be the fact that I had this one particular best friend who left me the day I was ending it.
Hurts, real hard.
And now I only have myself. Nobody else to talk to, nobody else that’ll understand or listen as well as a true friend will.
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Self-reliant.
Sorry, but I can’t. I am dependent. And when you’re dependent, you lean on anything you can ust to find support.
But what happens when your support can carry the burden any longer? It crumbles. It leaves you.
I am my own support.
And I am crumbling, leaving myself to myself.
I can’t hold my own weight anymore.
*”one frequent one”
*”just to find support.”
Sorry for the typos.
Hey, I understand. We’re both kind of in the same place. It sucks, doesn’t it? It’s hell. Literal hell. Not having anyone but ourselves is horribly difficult. If you want to talk, I made an e-mail to talk to people about stuff we’re going through so that we can help each other. I will be here to help you through this because I need someone, too. Email me if you feel like it. It’s blinkxxfighter@gmail.com.
Try to keep your head up, love. xx