There is nothing worse that not knowing how you feel; than having inexplicable feelings. It really is the worst feeling in the world. Not being able to express how you feel or what you want is the most disgusting and awful feeling you could ever possess.
Why does it happen? How is it even possible?
“You must know how you feel, you’re the one feeling it”
No. Because if I knew I wouldn’t dread every single day. If I knew I wouldn’t be numb and confused all the time over nothing. I don’t know how I feel about anything, and I don’t think I ever did.
I see people talk about how their life is one extreme or another. It’s either black or white. But I think life isn’t about extremes. At least, mine isn’t. I feel like my life has always been in a gray area, an area of uncertainty and confusion. Never knowing your place or how you feel. Never knowing is terrifying. Going through life without feeling is hell. I am in my own personal hell.
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I can relate to that not knowing how I feel and life in the grey
I relate a lot to that, everyone talks about something being the worst and I never really got it, I mostly just say stuff like that now so other people get it more. it always just seems like it is what it is and it’s hard to know what you’re supposed to feel, nothing’s really concrete black and white like it’s made out to be
The notion of “black and white” never made sense to me. Nothing (except computers, binary, anyone?) is black and white. It’s all gray, all the time.
It’s hard to explain il try my best say u attempt suicide people would say u was thinkin black and white thinking one way like killing your self other people would say take med therapy etc but wile thinking black and white u wouldn’t think of them other things
Nice post. I usually had trouble explaining the feelings of sadness I felt to others,
What triggered it?
…nothing, really.
But I just know I am sad a lot….to the point where suicide can only treat it.
Its hard telling people this.
More often than not, its trying to , ”justify my suicide.”
What will I write in a month to explain it all? I’m ‘‘sad”??
Its sounds pointless and pathetic.