I just saw Batman v Superman for the 2nd time and i have to say i have a much higher opinion of it than when I saw it the first time. The more I think about the more i realize how connected to this movie i am. I understand what its like to not be perfect and lambasted for it. I get what its like not to be accepted for what you are. For people to not see how good you are despite your flaws. I understand what its like tl be pre classified based upon criteria you can’t control because you are grouped in to someones expectation of what you should be instead of what you are. I’m tired of feeling ugly. I wish i knew a way to reprogram my head not to tell myself that. I feel so fucking repulsive that I want to kill myself. I often feel like suicide would be my great deliverance. It wont i dont have a method. Still it seems unfair that i have to drudge on and fail at life because i fail at causing death.