Attention Seeker Over Here

I thought it was going to be Just another normal day in my life today. But No think again honey. I had the busiest and most stressful day of my year so far, it went from a pop-quiz, to a partner project with someone who never does anything and I was assigned them so I “could help them understand the topic and language because I understand it so well.” getting into a fight with a douche bag boy in the hallway, then went to a workout session, to a soccer game, to basketball practice, where I didn’t arrive home until 9:30 at night, I still haven’t done my homework and on top of this fucking awesome day, I was pushed into telling my parents I am bisexual.

Now they didn’t find out through someone else and then interrogate me, (I have only told 3 people prior to this) we were riding home in my car from practice and I only have my permit so they told me to sit in the back, I did and I didn’t mind because I am tired as shit, and anyways I was joking around with my dad when he mentioned my leg hair (I don’t like shaving my legs, not because I am bisexual as my lovely mother decided to say that was why) and my mom decided to input how she is sending me to a laser hair removal place because it is gross and disgusting for me to not shave my legs. I told her I just relatively don’t like spending time shaving when no one sees my legs really and I don’t care if I have hairy legs, so no one else should either.

Now at this point I am a little mad she was going to send me to a hair removal place when I didn’t want to go there, when she asks me “Are you bisexual? because that is the only reason I can think of that would make you not shave.” and I said (in a didn’t matter tone, because it doesn’t) that I was in fact bisexual. She was upset and a little shocked at what I said, but when she got over it she started to ask me questions like “what girl do you like, what type of girl do you like, who did you tell?” My Favorite thing she told me though, by far the best thing she has ever fucking said to me, “In my opinion you’re doing this for attention.” I asked both my parents if it was a big deal to them if I was bisexual and if they had a problem with it. Mother dearest apparently decides that I was seeking attention because I told one of my brothers before them that I was bi.

When we arrived home I was sad she would say such negative things about me, but she wasn’t my only problem, don’t forget my dad sitting in the car with us to, anyways we got home she was still saying stuff like “you can’t blame your poor hygiene on your sexuality.” I was like no shit cause I am not and when did that ever come out of my mouth. Well dad over here, gets ridiculed by mother and stays silent even when she asks him to input something. He said nothing and I am hoping that is good sign, like maybe he didn’t say anything so she wouldn’t get madder than she already was. We ended up having a normal conversation, me and my dad, and then I went in my room.

An hour later here I am writing this while 30 mins ago I was bawling my eyes out, and talking to a close friend of mine about what is going on. She is one of the first people I told, she has been supportive the whole time and when I told her what happened she was shocked and had nothing to say. She did her best to try and  cheer me up though.

I know I posted like 2 days ago but I needed to let off some more anger, because I couldn’t let all my problems onto my friend. I was also curious if anyone has gone through the same thing or similar problems, I really need advice on what to do. I feel so alone right now, more so than I have in a while. I hate this feeling and I want it to go away I just don’t know how. Someone help me, before something gets even worse, and something happens that cannot be undone.