My mind is eating me. Sadness, anger, envy, loneliness, hate, self-loath, jealousy, shyness, sense of failure and other shitty feelings packed in one mind. I fcking hate times like this when I get depressed for no particular reason. I can’t seem to know the reason why but fck this. I try to do things to keep myself from being like this but even playing video games-the one thing that never fails to keep my mind straight- is failing. Had been feeling like this for I dunno maybe a month or two but back then it was just mild. Right now, I really think my mind and heart is going to shatter. I dunno what to do. I want to sleep but I can’t, that’s why I’m posting this at this moment. I just wish I didn’t exist.
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This is exactly how I feel right now, dont get too down I hope it passes for you, quite possibly its because ya brain is thinkin too much and its going in circles about how your life is and makin ya feel down, its what happens to me, like I said try not to get to down and let it pass
I feel very similar, my life is turning into a toxic wasteland and I just want this to end.
My mind has been in very dark places like you mentioned in the past…so I know what its like. I literally had years of my life where I was constantly in pain and had practically nothing to live for but to suffer… and during those times I had a few suicide attempts.
BUT I want to tell you that > things can get better. They really can. I have pulled out of the mess I used to be in and my life has been getting better little by little… and I now have some joy and happiness in my life. SO hang in there man. I wish you the best. I hope that things turn around for you and believe that they will.
If you can try to identify what is bothering you about your life and try to come up with some solutions to those issues. Also don’t be afraid to reach out for help when you need it.
I had a lot of people who helped me out during my dark times and I can see now in retrospective that > the help they lended to me made a world of difference.
I know those feelings. Hope they pass soon. If they don’t, please try and get some help. Usually when I talk about what’s eating my mind I can identify some problems, and that way I can start working on them.
I really hope you feel better soon. If you’d like to talk to me, I’m more than willing to hear.