Being alone is fine, most of the time. When you’re focused on something else. But then you get tired, and can’t focus. And you can’t get to sleep. Because you can’t find peace. Because you realize that your life is lacking anything worthwhile. That there’s nothing you can do, to feel part of a group. Because your whole way of thinking is based on being alone. And you can’t give that up. Because that would mean opening yourself to rejection. And there’s so much about you that should be rejected.
So you’re trapped. Telling yourself to do whatever it takes to break through and make some kind of connection. But also that it’s impossible – that being alone is fundamental to who you are.
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I understand you, because i feel the same way.
Thanks for saying that.
No problem, ill be around if you want to chat….
I get it.
Thanks. Though I’m sorry if anyone else feels like this.
Being alone can be fine in some circumstances. I like to spend some time along.
But lonliness can also be hurtful and rough.
I used to enjoy being by myself until lonliness really started to get to me.
Now I know that I need somebody in my life.
I think we all need somebody sometime
I wouldn’t disagree. I just don’t feel like I can meet that need. I can’t let anyone in.