So my family think I’ve either gone completely insane, or I’m on drugs. This energy and hyperactivity hasn’t gone away – in fact, it’s getting worse. My sleep is also next to nonexistent. I can’t slow down my speech, and I can’t stop moving around.
I got this sudden urge to go to the beach, and so I made my stepdad take me since I wasn’t allowed out the house alone – we went the beach at 9:30 at night. And I literally did a karaoke in the car in the way home again – I have also decided I’m rebuilding hospitals to give them all helipads, and I’m taking helicopter lessons as well as going on holiday next week.
We got home and my mum has been saying how manic I am, and she literally turned around and called me Bipolar. Fun. She was on the phone to my psychiatrist the other day – apparently about my medication – but I’m almost certain she’s lying about something.
It’s almost 1:30 in the morning now – my stepdad stayed downstairs and watched a film with me to make sure I actually went to bed afterwards.
I can’t shift this energy, and it’s driving me insane because I can’t do all these things I want to do at once. Oh well.
This post is most likely all over the place and won’t make much sense. But, again, oh well.
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You make sense. You just have a manic episode – decreased need for sleep, urge to speak, racing thoughts, distractibility, increased need for motion, singing and so on.
Don’t worry, I don’t recall it being too dangerous or anything like that. If I remember correctly, the biggest danger is that people during them take on tasks they can’t later fulfill, so don’t sign up for Olympics even if you feel like it right now! 🙂 Just be careful not hurt yourself, no jumping over the walls, acrobatics or anything like that, even if you feel like you can make that jump!
Just enjoy the joy and follow up with appointment 🙂
My mum keeps bringing up the whole ‘manic’ thing.
The main thing everyone’s worried about is how angry I get. The slightest thing can suddenly shift my mood and I lash out – I almost broke my wrist yesterday. When I’m angry, I’m angry. And nothing calms me down, so I need to leave and be alone for a couple hours otherwise I hurt people.
I’m somewhat ‘okay’ right now, I get these small periods when I’m not entirely crazy-hyper and it usually last 10-30 minutes.
I see my therapist in 2 weeks I think, but I don’t know how I’ll cope with being this energetic until then – I go back to college on Monday, and I’ve been so busy with other projects I’ve done absolutely no work. Plus, I can’t focus for too long so I’ll be up and walking around class the entire 2 hours without doing any work.
Being easily irritable can be part of it sometimes. Things like the one with your wrist are part of those dangers.
Therapist is great for many things, but I think he can’t prescribe medication which a psychiatrist can. Medication has rather good success rate in treating those episodes and quite good rate of stopping their reccurence in the future. I think it’s definitely worth a shot if it’s possible, especially if it could provide “easy and permanent fix” and free you of it.
Wanna talk? My kik is Kalmahavak, and my email is andrewholstein1@gmail.com
I’d love to get to know you! 🙂
Does your school have any psychiatrists that work there? You may need to see someone sooner than 2 weeks. Listen to relaxing music and stay calm.
Sorry I didn’t reply, I was busy.
We have a councillor, but I have no idea who it is. I doubt I’ll even end up going to college next week.
I can’t calm down, relaxing doesn’t calm me down it only makes me worse.