My bed is warm and safe. I like to be in bed because then I can hide away from the world.
I can dream and do all the things in my dreams that are virtually impossible (at least at the moment) in real life.
My cat sleeps on me and comforts me. I can play my 3DS and get lost in computer game worlds.
Sometimes, I get anxious and scared if I’m not in bed. I feel guilty because I feel as if I am wasting my life. But I don’t get any pleasure in going out where I live. It reminds me too much of the horrible things that have happened. Also, every time I try something new, no matter what, it never lives up to my expectations. That’s my fault, not anybody else’s. Hopefully when I see the doctor in a couple of days time, he can help me with that. (Real help is what I am hoping for, not cookie cutter therapy).
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My cat sleeps on me too. The only relief I get from this hell is the brief moment before falling asleep and being asleep.
Cats know when we are sad and try to help as best as they can.
Do you ever get to have nice dreams? Though sometimes that can be sad…when you wake from a dream and realise it wasn’t real.
The first time I ever became depressed was due to realizing a dream was not real :/
If only life could sometimes be like our best dreams. It would make everything so much better.
king nothing, I love my bed my cats sleep with me too! my bed is part of the reason i exist, i pay bills work hard and that’s one of the benefits of being responsible, along with vodka, cable, and you can guess the rest 🙂
You have cat(s)? Ha, I bet they take up a lot of room but the more, the better. My cat is friends with the cat next door and I swear I’ve woken up some nights and they’ve both been on my bed.
I tried vodka once; a very strong Scandinavian brand at a party. My friends still remember it…I however, remember very little!
Is there any better way to spend life outside of fulfilling daily obligations?
Sleeping! Cats! Being serious now, I do try. I play a lot of computer games but some don’t run on Windows 10. Thinking of going back to 7 or buying 8.
I think the problem is, sometimes life feels all unbalanced. It’s like, you have to do so much boring stuff, annoying stuff, painful stuff (not to mention those people along the way who make it their mission to be as douchey as possible). All this comes with no effort but to have some fun, it either requires gargantum amounts of money and tons of effort. Lol, that’s how is feels sometimes.
I love my bed too, and I miss being able to have cats.
Cats can be such comforting friends.
I’m glad to see so many people agree with me :3 I hope that you will be able to have cats again soon. I couldn’t imagine being without pets; my family have had animals literally since I was born.
I loved them.
My oldest died at the ripe old age of 19. A good long life.
Another had some rare liver/blood disease and the vet couldn’t save him.
And one more died of some strange neurological thing. He died in the vet’s office while they were keeping him overnight for observation.
After I lost the last one, I realized I couldn’t have any more pets.
I love them, but my disability/mobility has gotten so much worse that I can barely care for myself, let alone pets. So I chose to remain cat-less.
Aw, I am sorry that you are poorly and can’t have pets anymore. It’s horrible when they die but I try to think about the fun stuff we (my pets and I) did together and look at old photos of them. I have my lovely cat now and his adopted big brother died in 2011; he was a month off his 18th birthday.
19 is a good age for a cat…I think about 133 in people years.