I remember back in 2nd grade me and this other girl used to get teased by saying we liked each other. I don’t even know how it started we weren’t even in the same grade and I don’t think I knew about her until the teasing started lol. This carried on throughout the year, and somewhere during that time I actually started having a crush on her.
I specifically remember a moment where school ended and everyone was waiting in the gym to get picked up and my friends pushed me towards her as her friends pushed her towards me. I was so embarrassed but luckily my brother came to pick me up at that exact time so I dodged as quick as I could. The next day we got really embarrassed when we saw each other lol.
The school was closing right after the school year ended due to bankruptcy (small private school) and at the last day everyone was outside and the teachers had planned for all the students to sign each others shirts and the girl asked me to sign her shirt, and instinctively I bolted LOL, she then chased me down and eventually we both collapsed and started laughing. I signed her shirt and she signed mine and I remember being so god damn happy. (Never seen her again since lmao)
I miss those days, where the smallest things were the only thing I had to deal with , good or bad.
I didn’t worry about my future or my family , only thing I worried about is if the girl I liked noticed me.
I never had clue my life would turn into this.
I know I will never come close to the way I felt that day ever again.
And to be honest I don’t care if I don’t, I’m content with my decision to leave without finding out.
But damn I feel it would’ve been so nice if I didn’t end up like this.
Nothing is simple anymore.
I wonder where she is now, I hope not anywhere close to how I am now.