Hello. Today was a bit rough. I have a little under two weeks left for school. I just need to get through it. Around this time I get kind of depressed. I am never comfortable around people and school is the only time I am ever around people. When it comes to summer, I do my utmost to stay away from public places. However, I can’t help but feel kind of shitty when going back to that routine. It means I really am alone. When you have no reason to be around people, it means people have no reason to be around you. You are alone. When summer finally comes to a close, I have tiny panic attacks about reintegrating into the public. It is awful. I don’t think I explained it all that well. Sorry. When I finally get to college (I have one year of high school left), I will really have no reason to be around people. From classes straight to an apartment and vice versa. I don’t have the guts to go out and be around people nor the motivation. I guess it makes it easier to think about ending it all. When you can’t imagine anyone really caring about you being gone, you feel slightly less guilty. Thanks for listening.
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J Doe, we talked yesterday, do you take any medicine? i can’t remember.
J Doe, you have a very crippling case of anxiety, you need to fight it, what have you done to do that? far as doctors go?
Sorry for not replying. Just saw your comments. Don’t take medicine. Don’t go to therapist. Cost money. Parents get agitated when they lose money. I avoid such things. Don’t want to go back.
J Doe, you have a serious problem that is going to effect you for a long time if you don’t do something about it, i’ll give you some advice, you need to fight this very crippling case of anxiety, go to the doctor tell him about your anxiety , to get a prescription of anxiety medication, lorazepam works well, you take it when your in a uncomfortable situation it helps calm you down, you don’t take it forever just when you need it to get through your struggle, you need to force yourself little by little to face these uncomfortable situations, you will get better at it over time, that’s the only way to get over it, to face it and beat it. it’s that simple, you will grow stronger every time you face it, and eventually won’t need the medication. start right now soon as possible so you can enjoy life.
I’ll think about it. Still not into the whole med idea. Maybe a therapist.
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J Doe, you can do what you want, it’s your life, but i’m going to have a hard time feeling sorry for you. i’m not being mean it’s just i don’t like to hear of your unhappiness and your not doing anything about it.